|
CONSCALOG
|
[ questions make me blue.. |
|
|
|
|
..tell me something good ] |
|
|
|
|
|
|
| of paths and strangers |
[Aug. 26th, 2009|01:04 am] |
i don't really know how to write down my thoughts coherently. my brain's like a whole swath of confusion.
i somehow think that what i want is different from what the Lord wants. how else to explain this emptiness and despair? |
|
|
| of summer and hearts |
[Jul. 14th, 2009|09:23 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  gloomy | ] |
oh my iadhjfldanfkuahnefkunaekufanef livejournal ate up my post again. |
|
|
| of thoughts and tesuto |
[Apr. 14th, 2009|12:57 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  irate | ] |
just a short entry for some comments. (it became a sorta long one.)
i think it's really dumb that in singapore, "political awareness" isn't true to its name. ask people on their opinions on political awareness and u'll get a anti-government response 99% of the time. it's absurd, and a corruption of the word "awareness". political freedom if you might, but going around in support of "political awareness" is just an excuse.
i've always been of the opinion that excessive freedom is equally, if not more, damaging and corrupting than authoritarian rule. why do human beings always crave more freedom, which is not even a basic necessity of life? why must we always go on comparing with other countries?
"X country has so much more political freedom but there isn't unrest and instability"
freedom isn't the real reason; it's power. freedom is an excuse for people. in doing what they want to do, they feel their power being exercised -- "i'm doing whatever the hell i want to do and no one can stop me because it's my right to do so." obviously there's a line to draw, especially when the flexing of one's right infringes upon another's.
people who know me would definitely have heard me mutter at some point or another "the average american is an idiot." that's not all, the average singaporean is an idiot too. what makes it worse is that the more educated people tend to envision a singapore in comparison to other countries where "human rights exist" and they look at our country and say, hey, what's happening? why are we not getting this kind of freedom?
but they fail to look at the implications. just take a bloody look around. we're a nation of 40+ years of age, and yet we prosper. don't give me the bullshit about how the economy is doing badly and how people are being affected. if WE are being hit badly, look around once again at those who survive on $1 a day -- or less. look at those who cannot even afford a roof over their heads. is being content such an undesired trait in the human race? oh the hypocrisy of it all, where we go for CIP to help those in less fortunate circumstances, and yet we cannot appreciate what we have.
let me tell you why a utopia where everyone has perfect rights and freedom is impossible. the human race is inherently imperfect. more accurately, inherently evil. "men are born to succeed, not to fail" -- henry david thoreau
wrong. a perfect socio-political system will only work for a perfect community. on the presumption that humans within the community are perfectly virtuous. such communities have never, do not, and will never exist. hence the utopia remains exactly what the word implies: an unrealistic idea. impossible to achieve. a DREAM. one that can never come true.
there are decisions that a government makes that will not make its citizens happy. can anyone think of ANY decision ANY government has made that satisfied ALL its citizens? no, of course not. here in singapore, we have the uniqueness of being a country where the citizens cause a furore for every other decision made. "no, we don't, we're not allowed to protest since we have no freedom!" yes, you retards, the recent bill was passed to stop idiots like you from causing the trouble you WOULD cause if you were allowed to protest openly.
how so? singaporeans are like sheep, without any direction. in fact we're worse than sheep, because not only do we follow blindly, we end up fighting for something that's not worth fighting over after following blindly. along comes a CSJ with his antics, and he has converts. converts who do not recognise the consequences. converts who THINK that they are thinking and lamenting the sad political situation in singapore. yes, our government is far from perfect. so many changes can be made to improve things. but look at the other candidates for our government. you honestly think the opposition can do a better job? so, instead of bitching and bitching and bitching, if you feel that you are 100% right in your actions...
why not start your own political party and be the instrument of change?
the reason? because in actual fact, you don't care about others' rights. you "care" because you fear that "what if someday this happened to me, and i do not have the freedom that i want?" as long as it has not affected you yet, you would rather leave the work to other people, and continue to bitch.
"the world is cruel, men are selfish." in the end, my ninja-OC has got it right. well, jap paper in 3 hours. time to continue studying.
|
|
|
| of lab and... well, lab |
[Feb. 19th, 2009|08:44 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | lonely | ] |
it's already week 7.
i've been wanting to update, but everytime i find some spare time, i don't know what to write, so i just end up not posting anything. all of a sudden, poof, i haven't updated for more than a month.
been busy with lab. most of my free time is still spent there, whether between lessons, before lessons, after lessons, although before is quite rare since my shifu always goes to lab pretty late. as the title says, this post is mostly gonna be about lab, so.. sorry to those who read and aren't exactly lab or chem attuned. haha.
i haven't exactly learned a LOT in lab yet, mostly been observing and doing menial tasks. slightly higher status than being a saikang warrior ba? but for some reason, i enjoy it. yes i do stuff that most ppl won't do, so in a sense it's NEW, but while most would get tired of washing and washing and washing and washing and TLCing and columning blah blah blah, i seem to be ok? O.o i guess it's also fun in a way when my shifu decides to ask random mechanism questions to see if i know the idea behind the reaction. lol. yes yes, chem geek, whatever. but isn't a thirst for knowledge a good thing anyway? rather than bumming around stoning... i'm no workaholic, but i'm no absolute stoner either.
as for what EXACTLY is happening in lab, well, my reaction is kinda stuck at one of the stages. just started on our third attempt to perform ion exchange in a resin. the first time, the exchange was only about 80%, i guess shifu wasn't happy about that cos there's no reason why the yield should be so low, so he decided to redo it. second time, we didn't even get past the first stage of exchange with the resin cos uhhh.. the column exploded HAHA. ok not EXPLODED exploded in a spectacular fashion, it essentially exploded cos of too much pressure inside it. i will forever remember my shifu's face and semi-sheepish grin when i went in, he said:
“你的 resin 全都没了， column 爆炸， 满桌都是 resin”
so begins the third attempt. maybe we'll just let it drip instead of using a pump to push the water out of the column. hmmmm... just wanna get on with the rest of the reaction scheme and actually synthesize some of my product to see if it actually works O.o i shouldn't be complaining at third attempt fail considering alex has had like... 20+ unsuccessful reactions liao. but his takes 1-2 hours each! one resin takes bloody days to prepare grrrr.
ah well. tomorrow will be a better day. methinks. fridays are always good, most of the time. |
|
|
| of sem2 and rubbergloves |
[Jan. 9th, 2009|12:37 am] |
it's almost the end of week1 of sem2. 2 days of school have gone by.. for those wondering how on earth that's possible, i started school on wed this week lol. and the lack of chem lectures this sem (i'm only taking 1 chem mod, biochem) is really getting to me lol. can't seem to pay attention during the other lectures. "coping cultural transition" is quite toot so far, while first lecture of "mastering communication" is tmr so i'll find out how it's like. maths lecture... no need to say, i go into an auto-stone mode lol. and even biochem isn't that chem-ish, so i don't really feel like a chem student this sem..
thank goodness for lab.
although i must say it's tiring, but at least i'm learning stuff. stuff that is chemistry. stuff that i will use. or hope to use. whether in chem research in uni or in any job i take on in the future. i've learnt how to do columning, rotavaping, i'm supposed to be taught how to use the NMR machines in the near future, have been spamming TLCs for the columns and i probably used more acetone in the past 2 days than my mum ever used to remove her nail polish and my dad to remove superglue. my hands smell of rubber gloves when i get back to hall. left lab at 11pm both yday and today. soon soon soon i'll be a slave in lab :D tiring, yes, but i guess what really interests me is the practical part. we learn so much during lessons about this reaction and that reaction, and we can remember so much about it, blah blah, but when it actually comes to carrying out that reaction... entirely different story. so many things to bear in mind, so many different aspects to consider, it's quite challenging especially when you know almost nothing about it. and maybe it's that challenge that makes me enjoy it, i'm not sure, but so far i can say that i am, in fact, enjoying lab.
i'm just wondering whether i can keep this up and maintain the grades i want, and give my students the attention they need. this sem should be ok, but i'm not so sure about year2sem2 cos i have zero mods exempted that sem and it'll be major exams for my students, so throw in lab and i guess i really don't have time to sit back and relax. hmmm. although, lab is a good way to distract the mind from other stuff, since i'm not really thinking of anything else other than chem during that time.. |
|
|
| of 21 and 09 |
[Jan. 1st, 2009|04:27 pm] |
gg, i didn't realise it has been so long since i last updated. well actually i did realise. but i kept putting off updating due to several reasons. so many things to do, so little time.
ok so first off i turned 21. O.o i know this is WAYYYYYYYY overdue but i wanna give a shout out to everyone who made the effort to turn up, i really appreciated it and thanks for making time to spend my 21st bday with me haha. u all aer awsumz! some special thanks:
1. my beloved mei! thanks for the wallet! i so badly needed a replacement. my old wallet literally stinks and stuff. so yeah! and thanks for staying for LAN and being the carrot even though we ended up playing internal games so there wasn't much to carrot but still ya thanks for staying :D :D
2. monsterliu! for coming down even though u were jetlagged from ur roflmao trip back from the US on the same day. and staying for LAN even though u were damn tired. is ok i know u loved it. i will ask my dad cook beef stew before u zao ok. (Y)
3. choryen! for making the pilgrimage across the entire island just to come to my gathering. for being such a lolgoodfriend in NTU. although i know now ur gf takes up a lot of ur time :P see if next sem got time, i play RA3 a bit with u. okok?
4. alex and jie! for coming back also from godforsakenmotherlandofNTU after lab even though the BOTH of you live so far away so it was like. pretty gay. haha! and the combined card with the other NTU ppl. and the present! although it ended up being a duplicate of another person's gift but is ok i promise i'll use it too at some point or another :X maybe when the first one spoils or something HAHAHAHA
5. kuku-chan! thanks for being MY OLDEST FRIEND AROUND! and for teh clocky + fudge + card + keychain thingy(?) but seriously there is definitely something up with the fudge. it's more like those opium cakes u see in the movies. i shall find your clandestine laboratory producing the drugs and confiscate. all your fudge are belong to me.
6. the rest of the LAN gang: sam, ben, cy, eldon, for entertaining me till 6AM and walking through the rain from lanshop to lanshop ahahaha. sam's briskwalk in the rain along the road was hilarious wahahaha. more pool + lan to come!
7. hime who couldn't stay in sg until my bday gathering, and so spent time catching up and stuff for the previous 2 days :) not sure if u will get to read this but hope u're having a good time overseas, stay safe and come back soon ya? we go shima when u return if u still want to xP
ok so those are the MAIN people i wanna thank. munneruvalibaness. what next? exam results finally came on on the 29th, and hmmm.. all i can say is i wish i did better for maths :/ but i guess i don't really have anything to complain about. i guess i'll just S/U maths next sem and save myself the trouble :X since next sem i am looking at a -pretty busy- schedule. shall elaborate more another time. hopefully i can juggle everything properly and not end up screwing myself over majorly ._. of course this is assuming i interpreted the course registration thing correctly. i think the confirmation mail will come soon enough, then i'll know..
so the new year is upon us, and as always i guess people make resolutions. thankfully i haven't started off my new year ANNOYING PEOPLE OF A DIFFERENT RACE (glare at kuku-chan), yet. YET :P among other things, i pray that i will be able to be more patient, more caring, more studious (-_- ...) and well, less sensitive in certain ways.
"the passing summer sky takes the pain along
starving for an unwavering love, I sing softly to the sky..." -- Ai Otsuka, "Natsuzora" (Summer Sky) |
|
|
| of hurhur and pewpew |
[Dec. 16th, 2008|07:30 pm] |
ok, ok, i got bored and have nothing to do and don't have to sleep early tonight so before i go into dota mode when chunyee gets online, i shall blog. mmm.
went back to NTU on friday to register my courses which in the end wasn't very exciting cos i got my 3 core modules first choice slot. now left with the UEs/GEs and whether they wanna assign to me so that i don't end up doing a grand total of 9 AUs next sem. if i don't get jap i'm gonna bitchbitchbitchbitchbitch and appeal like mad, and if i still don't get, well... :( then i left NTU and took the awesome train ride, the gay trip from boon lay to pasir ris, at least i had a seat and i slept part of the way so it was ok. used to it anyway. when i reached pasir ris mrt and saw the shuttle bus timings to aloha loyang...
12:15, 13:45 -- the 2 closest times
current time: 12:40
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!! so i ended up walking to aloha loyang. aljdgadlijfilajecilae. nvm. is ok.
so when i reached, met my group to brainstorm for finale night skit and we had some really really retarded ideas all thrown in, mostly from me and GL cameron. we are king at talking rubbish and suggesting goondu stuff. although in the end the skit was quite uncoordinated and some of the members forgot their lines and stuff O.o we stayed over at aloha on fri night.. then after getting home on sat afternoon, i was initially supposed to have tuition but i thought meh i'll have it on mon. so i watched igor instead. wasn't very good, bolt was SOOOOO much better O.o at least it wasn't 3D price. cough. after the movie went home to sleep cos i was tired. ok fine i didn't, i ended up watching bleach. ~_~
sunday was church as per the norm but i didn't get back home till way past 2 cos it was raining heavily so i hung around church just talking to friends. got home after the rain, watched more bleach until dinner time. dinner was BUO at century square! the duck leg confit was AWESOME. like AWESOME AWESOME. yw + hotboy had the pan-seared fish that i recommended. maybe i'll have that next time O.o yw bought me ice cream mochi which was omgomg even though the skin was a bit funny and not really mochi-like, but heck, i just regarded it as ice cream and ate it all the same :D can't match the ones we ate in japan, but that's obvious, so i'll just keep wishing for the day i go back there and get to savour their ice cream mochi... mmmm. oh, and as usual i got a spring for myself, even though i have 3 bottles of baileys at home. muahahaha. then errr, i got home and... watched bleach again. lols
monday! tuition with the students in the west, one after the other, didn't have time for lunch in between.. ended up having chicken rice as lunch at like, 5+pm ._. then i went on my final bleach spree and finished catching up with the rest of the episodes. omg. i watched like 60 episodes' worth in 3 days. holehsheet.
today woke up early to gauge my 2 new students. gotta go thru their promo papers later and see what kinda stuff they're not too strong in all. but ok la, so far nothing much. i guess i'll find out more as time passes :D then had driving in the afternoon. fwah. freaking traffic jam at eunos. i stalled 3 times today too lol O.o hopefully i can get in enough practice within these 3 days. FRIDAY IS D-DAY! FIGHT! WIN! PREVAIL! |
|
|
| of holidays and late nights |
[Dec. 11th, 2008|12:25 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | sleepy | ] |
it doesn't seem like 9 days since i last updated O.o but the date says so. in fact it's more like 10 now. so i guess it's time for an update :P
i don't think much happened on tues wed thurs. i had tuition on tues, was SUPPOSED to go to bedok85 but then SOMEONE PANGSEHED. (you know who you are :P)
i wanted to shoot on wed morning before driving but i woke up late and i was pretty tired so end up i didn't. just went for driving. caught bolt at suntec after driving, the 3D one... wah biang $12, never watched such an ex movie before O.O but it was pretty good, i must say. definitely worth the non-3D price, but 50% more for 3D doesn't cut it imo. blahblah.
thurs and fri saw me lanning with teh fags because sam and ben finished their exams on thurs and fri respectively. WAS SUPPOSED TO HAVE STINGRAY. BUT SOMEONE PANGSEHED AGAIN. "You suck. XP" stayed over @ sam's on friday and played some poker, kinda sucked at it :X then woke up on sat and went for tuition at clementi. i missed my stop! cos i was supposed to get off at KAP. then i was at the ngee ann poly stop. then got chiobu board the bus! and she was seriously damn chio! like rly! so i went smsing ppl and saying omg i just saw NP chiobu. then by the time i was done smsing, i waited and waited for my stop then i realised it wasn't coming, somehow O.o so i checked the bus guide and OMG KAP is the stop JUST AFTER NP! so i missed it 3 stops ago! so i got off and walked to KAP -.- soooo had breakfast @ KAP, then went to my student's house. she shifted not too long ago so her room was in a complete mess, first time i can actually say my room is tidy in comparison to someone else's :D
after tuition i didn't feel like going back home so early so i went to orchard to watch the NTU symphonic band @ far east plaza. eh, it was not bad, and that coming from a person who can't rly appreciate such stuff... means it was good i guess? lol. then was supposed to meet alex for dinner BUT i got owned by mum who smsed me and summoned me back for dinner.
-ponder- what happened on sunday? i don't remember. :S skip.
monday i went back to NTU to... further my experiment... which utterly failed. i think the SRNE was too concentrated. and a bit contaminated. so now i gotta redo the prototype, which means i have EVEN LESS time for the actual specimens... to further complicate issues, the original bottle of SRNEC went missing. so my source is more or less GONE. :/ (if anyone is wondering what on earth those acronyms mean, message me, because i is protecting my backside.) had dinner with alex at TAMPOPO! the good: wafu steak. tonkatsu. the ok: gyoza and ramen. I WAS SO SAD, because they ran out of pork bone soup. apparently they sell that out by lunch. so my awesome ramen was non-existent. :/ but the wafu steak was really well marbled and tender, while the tonkatsu, is the best so far i've eaten in sg. yes, better than waraku's. :D :D but no pork bone soup. :( :( i'll elaborate more on the food on msn if anyone wants to know, cos this entry is getting rather long.
tues morning woke up early to go for church youth camp.. feels weird being one of the oldest ones around O.o i don't have any committee role in this camp, but i probably act like i do, cos when i see retarded things i can't help but correct it. hmmm. had to leave after the message at shalom though, cos it ended at 9+pm and i had IPPT the next day. i wanted to wake up late to have enough rest.
so we've reached today! woke up at 11am and got lazy so i cooked instant mee for lunch. ended up eating more than i actually wanted to cos the noodle packet was.... big. u know, the udon kind? anyway i reached bedok camp early, too early, so i stoned for a bit. i'll just give the summary for IPPT because there's not really much to elaborate on it O.o
station result/points
SBJ 250/5
situps 40/5
4x10 10.2/4
pullups 8/3
2.4 12:10/2 outcome: 19 points, "pass"
YES OMG I IS NO STAMINA ANYMOREEEEEE. wtf is 12:10?!?!?! now i'm really freaked out and need to train up my stamina. i'm so going jogging regularly next sem. :S how did my running deprove by 2 grades? answer: absolutely zero training. ok i kinda asked for it :/ now i wanna know if passing gets me moolah or not, i hope i still get $100 heh. not sure if pass equals to bronze? i was so looking forward to $200 from silver T_T but at least no RT for me. that's quite a good thing already.
had dinner at bedok85. YEAH, LIKE FINALLY. ate stingray, bakchormee, chicken wings, drank sugar cane. and then ate marzipan chocolate for dessert. O.o ahhh, nice (and surely fattening) dinner after IPPT :D catching up until 11+ just talking rubbish and telling stories, at which point kuku-chan got in trouble because got 12 missed calls from the Parental Units :X not my fault that your phone suxxor cannot hear it ringing. SAMSUNG SUX! BOYCOTT! USE OTHER BRANDS! to top it all off, we took the last bus the wrong way back into the interchange. hurhur. talk about noob xP
back to church camp tmr morning!
edit: corrected spelling mistake as dictated by nazi |
|
|
| of semi-freedom and tomodachikankaku |
[Dec. 1st, 2008|11:09 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  lazy | ] |
is anyone else's LJ screwed up? O.o
EXAMS ARE OVER. summary:
maths: should be B+/A-
biochem: should be A/A+
forensics: should be A/A+
orgchem: errr...err... anywhere from B+ to A
what exactly have i been doing since exams ended?
thurs: last paper, after that had dinner at waraku heeren. went to funan to buy RA3, then went back to taka to go art friend to look for some stuff. then headed back to hall to hang around with some friends until like freaking 2am.
fri: woke up at 7am to send a friend off, then went home. didn't sleep on the train. met alex and jevon for lunch at blue urban oasis. eh BUO's food is really good leh haha. ANYONE WANTS TO GO SOON? I CAN RECOMMEND LOTS OF GOOD STUFF. :D then after BUO went for sitex at expo and got cheated out of $6 because the dumb keyboard vacuum cleaner doesn't work. -.- after that, went home to crash early cos i was dying from sleep debt due to exams + random things.
sat: woke up early once again at 7+ to go for driving at 9am. first lesson in 5 months and well at least i haven't forgotten my stuff? but it's just road driving and i'm confident of road driving, it's the circuit that kills me. grrrr. after driving... came home to play RA3. until dinner. finished the soviet campaign. wow, damn stone ._. then just chatted online till 2 or so and went to bed.
sun: church at 11am, there was buffet lunch woo! haha okay. hung around a bit then came back home. didn't play RA3 except for about 30min to try and help my bro get past a particular mission. other than that i just sat around drawing things since i haven't drawn anything for absolute eons. dinner was at stew haus near siglap center, not much to be said except the pork knuckle was pretty awesome. however the portions of almost everything else was quite lousy and definitely not worth the price that we paid. came back after dinner and continued drawing.
mon(today): had driving at 9am once again. booked my next 3 lessons on wed thurs fri, all in circuit, and irritatingly all in the afternoon so i can't go back to NTU like i wanted on wed. after driving i went over to PPCC to shoot for the first time in...several months, to say the least. it was good and bad, good because even though i shoot so infrequently, my form is still ranging from not bad to good, and skill is there. but endurance is DEFINITELY NOT. i think i barely managed to shoot 40+ arrows today at the very most, and near the end i was literally shooting 3 by 3, then 2, then on my last end i could only click 1 arrow. so i knew there was no point continuing for the day and so i packed up lol. went home after that and took a nap then played RA3. ate dinner and then more RA3. finished allied campaign!
got tuition tmr, first lesson in roughly 1 month plus. think i'll go down to PPCC again on wed to shoot before driving lesson.. |
|
|
| of finals and rediscovery |
[Nov. 16th, 2008|11:49 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  ponderous | ] |
so maths finals is over, and i think i screwed up a bit. lol, oh well, should have done a lot more practice on integration i guess. pretty convinced that i did the volume question correctly though, despite what some of my other friends say. i guess i should be thankful for my above-average spatial skills. additionally, proving questions tend to be shitty for me but i somehow managed to do all of them, many involving the "work backwords" method + sheer desperation. thank You, Lord.
told myself that i would start mugging 121 yesterday, but i ended up FINISHING the entire fate/stay night anime. so i guess i'll have to start today and really get down to doing it. maybe i'll attempt a past year paper, hmmm. after lunch or smth. on the bright side there's only 3 final papers left, when i look at it that way, somehow i feel a lot less stressed, even though time is running out to study for them. i don't feel the sense of urgency i'm supposed to feel. could be good and bad, i guess.
more recently, specifically on wednesday, i got into contact with one of my long lost friends -- my first friend in primary school. 12 years of no contact. catching up over the past few days has been nice, very nice. somehow we managed to talk like [quote] "it's as if i never poofed at all" [/quote], wonder if that's supposed to be a good thing? i always had this sense of emptiness regarding my time in bwps since after i left i didn't really manage to keep in contact with any of my friends there. as if i just left them behind although i didn't want to. sometimes i wonder how different life would be if i didn't get into tao nan or gep.
i can't help feeling the difference between the current me and the boy in p3. back then i was so eager to get the hell out of bwps, in search of more challenges ahead. but over the years my mindset seemed to change. i still love challenges, but now i'm more wary of what needs to be sacrificed in pursuit of such.. advancement. i used to want a grand and accomplished life when i was little. be awesome, be looked up to, blah blah (doesn't everyone want that when they're kids?). now, all i want is a simple life ahead, keeping my friends close to me and not wanting to lose a single one of those i consider important. i want to be looked up to in other ways. and if a great once-in-a-lifetime opportunity arises in work or smth, i probably wouldn't take it up if it meant sacrificing the upkeep of friendships. call me easily contented, if you will.
never again do i want to disappear, and lose those who are special to me. a friend said that some bridges are built and used only rarely, but are never demolished and will always remain. i, however, do not plan to allow those bridges to go unused. and i pray the special ones will do the same for me. |
|
|
| .........gg |
[Nov. 1st, 2008|12:58 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | crushed | ] |
pain. :/ |
|
|
| i has a code |
[Oct. 4th, 2008|01:52 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  amused | ] |
HAI
CAN HAS STDIO?
I HAS A VAR
GIMMEH VAR
IZ VAR BIGGER THAN 10?
YARLY
BTW this is true
VISIBLE "BIG NUMBER!"
NOWAI
BTW this is false
VISIBLE "LITTLE NUMBER!"
KTHX
KTHXBYE source: lolcode.com
i died laughing when reading this.
|
|
|
| of retardedness and flowing |
[Sep. 21st, 2008|12:25 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | blank | ] |
ok, so i had 4 tests (actually 3 midterms and 1 quiz) in the past 2 weeks, starting with maths which i already talked about. it wasn't so bad, the tutor was nice and gave me working marks for my otherwise 100% wrong question. so i got 3/4. lol.
next was CBC121. i went in feeling awesome, went out feeling awesome, and overall it was awesome, but i need to know where i stand in the bell curve. and i lost really retarded marks. didn't notice the extra stuff needed for the true/false questions, so i happily just circled true/false. so outta 10 marks, i got only 4, cos the last one i got wrong and i lost all 5 explanation marks, assuming the marks are split 1-1 for each T/F qn and not like 0.5 for circling and 1.5 for explanation. gah. my A is in danger :(
CBC811 forensics was... so-so. got 1 or 2 wrong already, but it was quite standard i guess. i think having a midterm for 1.6k ppl at the same time is madness. cheating is so rampant. gosh. and it's impossible to maintain silence with such a large group..
CBC113! wahahha! awesomeness. in my definition of course. how can i possibly complete 4 tests without making dumb careless mistakes in at least 3! -_- so anyway yeah it goes like this:
so recess week is finally here, 1 week of lazing around. ok not exactly lazing around cos i still have stuff to do, and meetups, and stuff. omg so busy sia har har har. hmmm. wonder if i have any chance at all. |
|
|
| ai otsuka - to me |
[Sep. 15th, 2008|02:26 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | okay | ] |
-----
nee kimi wa dare doushite sonna tokoro de
hiza wo kakaekonde naiteiru no?
aa kimi wa itsuka no boku da
jibun dake oitekibori kanashiin da ne
kaze to midori to tawamuretakke na?
kadashi de kanda daichi wa yashashikute
yume wo egaita hateshinai mama
itsuka togireru to shiranai mama
dare mo ga sorezore ni itami wo seotte
kurikaesu kyou wo hisshi de ikite iru
jyozu ni arukeru sa konkuriito no michi no ue
tsuchi to kaze no nioi ni furikaeri nagara
kimi ga kimi jishin wo shinjirenai de sa
dare ga kimi no koto wo shinjiru no?
jishin wo motte ii hazu sa mouichido yuuki wo furishiboru
utagai wa shinai sa kono michi no yukue
itsuka tadoritsukeru sou shinjite iku
hadashi de aruku no wa sukoshi tsumetakute
kujikesou ni naru hi mo arun darou
dare mo ga sorezore ni itami wo seotte
kurikaesu kyou wo hisshi de ikite iru
jouzu ni arukeru sa konkuriito no michi no ue
tsuchi to kaze no nioi ni furikaeri nagara
aruiteku
-----
quite a nice inspirational song from the drama "tokyo friends", sung by ai otsuka. it's a cover though, but the cover sounds a lot nicer than the original. hmmm. i liekz dis song.
"jibun dake oitekibori kanashiin da ne" -- 'you're sad from being the only one left behind, aren't you?'
v2.0: you're lonely from being the only one here, aren't you?
was gonna blog about the CBC121 test but i think i'll do it all at one go with the CBC811 and CBC113 tests later this week. hmmm.
|
|
|
| of limits and negatives |
[Sep. 10th, 2008|10:50 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | ARGHHHH | ] |
wahahhaha, just had maths quiz on limits.
printing calculus notes: $1.03
foolscap paper for maths tutorial practice: $0.90
pen and ink for test: $1.45
self-realisation 1 min after handing in the test that there was a careless mistake in the very first step of the 2nd question: priceless
FAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK i need to go back to secondary 1 man. to relearn that negative of a negative is a positive. kns. kns. ARGH
kamisama, mou sukoshi dake <-- how is this translated?
mou = just, only
sukoshi = a little
dake = only
where does "time" come in?? or is it implied? someone whose jap is zai please enlighten. lols.
|
|
|
| of tests and activities |
[Sep. 6th, 2008|11:44 pm] |
ok, blahblahblah. next week is week 6 and there's gonna be my first midterm test, for CBC121. i'm partly looking forward to it and partly not. not because, i didn't take bio at a lvls so all this shit is new to me lol. looking forward because well, i'll get to find out where exactly i stand within my course. of course that's a rough gauge and some ppl who don't do well will almost certainly buck up and mug like mad, me included if at all i'm amongst that lot. think my entire tuesday will be spent mugging biochem, before maths lect. then there will be maths tut on wed, with another 10min quiz. then CBC121 test on thursday zomgzomg.
haven't joined any hall whatever blahblah activities to get points to stay in hall. i need to find out about archery IVP and whether they will allow me to only start training after this semester for the season in like march, at least that's what ken told me. assuming i do join ntu archery la. if they won't accept me for IVP and then i can't get a guaranteed place in hall then really no point me joining ntu archery hmmm. plan to train heavily again once this semester is over and my tuition committments drops to almost zero. plus next sem is retardedly easy on me due to exemptions. oh well, time to clear funny AHSS and BM modules. but i really do wish to start shooting again. at least do something other than stone away my life, lols.
ahhhh. of course there are other things i can do. please go for lab early on monday. |
|
|
| of skies and stars |
[Aug. 31st, 2008|10:03 pm] |
gg i've been watching jap dramas recently. currently downloading 5, and streaming a few others on crunchyroll. started off with Yama Onna Kabe Onna (mountain girl, wall girl, referring to their boob size). quite a funny comedy, but nothing really worth mentioning. but maybe comedies are better. the one i finished watching today was Sora Kara Furu Ichioku no Hoshi. it's a VERY GOOD drama, 11 episodes, the storyline rox and causes the viewer to think a lot, but all in all it's a very very depressing and tragic series. to quote, it's referred to as the writer's "most dark and twisted work to date".
i won't go into plot details, but i wouldn't recommend people watch it unless they are prepared for the aftermath of watching it lol. if you can appreciate it for the plot and cast, then it'll be awesome, if not u'll come away thinking "WTF IS THIS SHIT OMG" or smth along those lines. life altering drama, indeed. just keep something light-hearted lined up after u watch this one.
which is why i'm watching Remote. after that i'll watch smth sadder again, then some comedy, etc etc etc. ahhhh.
hope i can get my biochem and math tutorials done tomorrow. |
|
|
| of tutorials and hall |
[Aug. 28th, 2008|08:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | crazy | ] |
ok so i finally decided to sit down and update an entry because i'm so utterly bored here in hall. yeah i got my laptop and all but don't rly have ppl online to talk to atm and like. i could get started on maths tutorial but feeling kinda unwilling to touch maths ahahahah.
hmmm, hall 2 isn't that bad. other than the fact that gotta clean own toilet. plus our toiletmates aren't exactly toilet cleaners, they seem to be more than happy to use it without washing. we've been doing all the cleaning thus far. correction, xianrong has been doing the cleaning, he always cleans it when i'm not around ahaha okay i promise to help you next time kk. stop scrubbing the floor when i'm not around.
other than that the location is pretty neat, since it's more or less in the center of the campus so getting anywhere else doesn't exactly take that long. as long as i know where i'm going. have taken a grand total of 1 shuttle bus during these 4 weeks, been walking the rest of the time, it's like my only form of exercise atm haha. what happened to my resolution to go running at least once a week, gosh. and i need to clear my ippt like soon. very soon. die.
chem lab was fun. recrystallisation wasn't as easy as i hoped it would be and almost everyone ended up being late and not managing to finish their melting point analysis. i barely managed to finish mine ._. oh well, the next lab's 2 weeks later, so my coat and goggles will be like sitting on the shelf and rotting for a while.
damn gay that i'm studying Chemistry and Biological Chemistry and yet i have maths tutorials every week while the chemistry tutorials are every other week. need to get over and done with maths rarrrrrr. spent the afternoon attempting the latest CBC113 (organic chem) tutorial and i think i managed to most of it correctly, but lecturer hasn't taught some of it yet so i'm not too worried. chem is fun though :D
in other news, i think i suck at making new friends. lolol. i think i've made only 1 new friend in my course so far O.o and only cos he was sitting on my left in lab lolol. must go say hi to more of the girls! ok now i sound like chee ko pek. hmmm but there are some cute girls amidst the swathe of... of... actually i shouldn't be complaining cos i'm sure ppl like ferris in mech engine is having a worse time. quote:
"girls? what girls?"
unquote.
1 month plus till o lvls, about 2 months for a lvls. holyshitpwnage. actually why am i worried about that now, i should be saying smth like this: 2 weeks till midterms for CBC121 (biochemistry), CBC113, test for MAS181 (maths), and possibly CBC811 (forensics). holyshitpwnage OMG WHY MUST THEY ALL COME IN ONE SHOT GAHHHHHHH plus CBC121 and CBC113 are on the same day HOW TO SQUEEZE IN ALL THE BIO STUFF ASOIEHTOINSDOIVA
wow that was a lot of crap i typed in such a short time ._. ok i'm done.
p.s. go choryen go! my fate lies in your hands! LOL. |
|
|
| of company and school |
[Jul. 20th, 2008|02:41 pm] |
so school's starting in like... 2 weeks? it's finally here. can't say i'm extremely enthusiastic and looking forward to it though. not really excited. it's just another phase of my life i guess. maybe it's dulled by the fact that i forgot to submit my exemptions and so now i have to spend about 23% more time in school, oh well. dumb dumb forgetful mistake. should be heading over to NTU on wednesday to collect hall room keys with botak. hope he'll make an awesome roommate haha.
whenever i have stuff that i actually wanna confide in people, someone, anyone, i look around and realise i don't have many people to share with. those whom i can completely trust are few enough. those whom in addition to that will actually listen and give advice... practically none? so end up, i just keep it in. cos there's no point letting it out. even a wall might be a better audience. |
|
|
| .......... |
[Jul. 8th, 2008|04:48 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | frustrated | ] |
fuck, fail.
oh well. opportunity cost of several hundred bucks.
i think i should go drink myself silly or smth. |
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
| |
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
conzzz's journal